Aura's question threw him off for a moment and he just gazed at her in wonderment. And yes, a part of him did want to laugh, but in joy, not cruelty. For a moment he'd been about to answer her, to tell her that yes he'd love to instruct her in the ways of his old Order, but then something inside him welled up and pulled him short. It was something dark that tasted of bile and smelled of blood; something that while not evil was not entirely righteous either. It was the anger, the fury he kept caged inside himself and only released in battle against his foes as he fought for the ideals of the Light. He realized in that moment that while he carried that with him he could be no better of a teacher of the Light to Aureliana than any member of the Blood Knights could be.
"I'd love to teach you Aura, but I'm afraid I'm just not cut out for the job. My knowledge and use of the light is tainted by the vengeance that burns in my soul," he finally told her with a sigh and a sad smile which he tried to keep light.
It killed him to see the light of hope he'd briefly kindled in her eyes die as she looked down and away from him again in despair. So much so that he paused again before continuing with what he'd been going to say, "....buuutt I do know someone who would be perfect for the job. That is if you can stand being taught by a human?"
Raenial was surprised that there didn't seem to be any of Aura's old prejudices about the other races showing in her voice or features as they discussed this possible new tutor of hers. Aura seemed to fall back into the typical despondency and self loathing she'd begun to show more and more of over the last year while he spoke of Tirion Fording and the strong friendship he'd built with the man since meeting the former member of the Silver Hand. Apparently she was not unfamiliar with the man, having heard of him before from another paladin of her acquaintance named Arkanae, briefly smiling as she mentioned how much alike he and this Arkanae were. Unfortunately the moment of joviality was short lived as Aura dived back into depression upon the mention that Tirion would not only like her but more than likely treat her as he would his own daughter. She broke down crying and Raenial did his best to console and comfort her, apologizing for mindlessly making such a remark.
It was in the midst of Raenial's reassurances that Aura was indeed a good and worthy person that they were interrupted by a familiar voice. Raenial was on his guard at a moment's notice, stepping towards and placing himself between the woman who stood further up the beach and Aura. How in the nine layers of the abyss Rainea had managed to find them he had no clue, but he asked her that very question. Her only response was some mystics answer about sensing the spark of the Light within her former student. Aureliana seemed confused and distraught but at the same time hopeful and awestruck by her former instructor. Point blank he told Rainea that she wasn't welcome there and that she needed to leave. He didn't want her confusing Aureliana, even if her intentions were good, and setting her back in her recovery. They argued a bit and as they did the differences in how Raenial treated his Knighthood and how Rainea treated hers became apparent as he became ever more impassioned and she remained cool and logical.
It didn't take long before he realized that Rainea wasn't going to leave until she'd said her peace to Aureliana and he had to admit to himself that she deserved the chance to clear the air between herself and her former student. He stepped aside and a short distance down the beach so that he was nearly out of earshot but still more than close enough to react should the need arise. Aureliana had given him one fearful look but then turned her attention raptly to Rainea as they began speaking. Raenial received more than one look as he'd grunt or share his own opinion of a particular point of conversation. He felt that if Rainea would just treat Aureliana with the compassion and love he knew she felt towards her old student that she would have a much easier time of getting through to Aureliana and not confuse the poor girl so much.
Eventually Rainea said her goodbyes, telling Aura she would not be seeing her again until Aura was ready to contact her, meanwhile Raenial made a mental note to speak with Sianhan about hiding ones loyalties from others. He wasn't really angry with the woman, just frustrated that he hadn't noticed it before hand. He returned to Aura's side as he watched Rainea's retreating form and then turned his attention to the gentle waves of the ocean and the purpling sky as it grew ever darker. A chill wind convinced them both it was time to return to his hut. In a rather childlike manner Aura asked to be carried and Raenial complied without hesitating even a moment, laughing softly to himself as his adopted little sister nestled herself down in his arms.
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The rest of the week proved to be just as stressful and yet epic at the same time as it saw him return to the battlefield on Quel'Danas where he proved himself time and time again. He even finally ran into Bluzah after listening to several of the Shattered Sun regulars sing her praises in the newly converted inn. He couldn't help but laugh as he found her sitting out on a balcony overlooking the harbor drunk as a skunk. She was pleased to see him though and tried to rise up to greet him. Seeing how wobbly she was Raenial gently pushed his love back into her chair and bent down to hug and kiss her warmly as he extolled his love and longing for her. She reciprocated in kind as he sat down on the ground near her chair as there was no other.
They sat and talked, Raenial teasing her about the praises he was hearing from the soldiers downstairs and she sounding surprised about the whole thing. Bluzah eventually flopped herself down into Raenial's lap after nearly losing her balance again while leaning down to kiss him. Something that he didn't complain about in the slightest as he snuggled her in his arms. They sat for a while bathing in the warmth of their love and the bliss of getting to be close to one another again, but after a time Bluzah seemed to get a pensive look on her face and stretched out to lie on the floor with her head in his lap.
It seemed to Raenial that she had something that she wanted to say to him but was having to build up to it for some reason. Finally she told him that she knew where Farzahrah was. The announcement threw him for a loop and for a moment he wanted to ask her where she was. Instead he merely asked her in a rather flat voice if she was safe. Bluzah assured him that she was and he commented then that was all that mattered really. She hesitated a moment again and blurted out that Farzahrah had found love again with another man, as if this would shock or distress him... and it did to some small extent he had been forced to admit to himself.
He asked Bluzah if this new man treated Farzahrah well and if he made her happy. She told him that he did and again it left Raenial with little more to say other then that was all that was important. Bluzah asked him to keep this knowledge quiet because Farzahrah and this mystery gentleman wanted to keep their relationship "hush hush" for the time being. That didn't sit well with Raenial and he half teasingly asked Bluzah if she was going to tell him who this mystery man was or was he going to have to cause a scene and tear apart half the world to find them. She shocked him then as she asked him what right he felt he had to even suggest such a thing. Raenial sat there in silence a moment as the coldness of Bluzah's comment washed over him. He finally asked why his devotion to those close to his heart wasn't enough and why his desire to ensure that what he'd done to Farzahrah wouldn't happen again at the hands of another man wasn't enough and many other questions which displayed his heartache at being treated so coldly when he had nothing but concern for his former lover.
Bluzah apologized for making the comment that she had and acknowledged that he had at least some right to ask who this man was, but also that she just wasn't going to break her promise to Farzahrah and tell him who he was. Raenial smiled as he accepted and respected Bluzah's position on the subject, settling down again with another shared kiss that began melting the tension which had sprung up almost instantaneously when she'd mentioned Farzahrah to begin with. After a time he felt exhaustion creep up on him and Raenial leaned his back against the balcony wall, asking Bluzah if it was all right with her if he slept there for a time. She smiled and agreed, snuggling herself into his lap some more as he drifted off to sleep.
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The rest of the week was spent either aiding with the battle on Quel'Danas, visiting with Bluzah when they managed to find each other, visiting with Aureliana at his beach side hut, or keeping his all too brief vigils in M'uru's chamber. Fortunately they received no more "surprise" visitors where Aura was recovering herself. At the time of two chance encounters which would change the tenor of his mood swiftly yet again that week he'd been standing in M'uru's chamber gazing down at the tabbard he now wore, one that bore the insignia of the Shattered Sun and garnered him a lot of the same comments he'd heard murmured about Bluzah while on Quel'Danas.
Raenial heard a voice behind him and it turned out to be a familiar looking young Sin'dorei woman, though he wasn't sure it was the same person as she wore the training chainmail of a Blood Knight and not the robes of magically enhanced silk, rune cloth, and netherweave he'd been used to seeing this woman in. If in fact she was the same woman and not a sister or other relative, or perhaps even some fortuitous doppelganger. Despite her warm and friendly smile he could see the burdens she carried in her eyes and on her shoulders and out of compassion asked her about them though she was quick to reassure him that no troubles bothered her.
Accepting her answer at face value he commented that she looked familiar, as if he should know her. She assured him that he indeed did know her but did not wish to speak her name in these confines, something else he understood and acknowledged with a nod. They contented themselves for a time by speaking of M'uru and what the Naruu had meant to them. She spoke of singing to or with M'uru on occasion and he was forced to admit that he'd heard her sing from a distance from time to time and thought her voice beautiful. She demurred, saying that her voice was nothing in comparison to M'uru's chiming song, but he insisted that her voice provided a wonderful counterpoint to the pained, yet soothing notes of the Naruu's song. While they chatted she scribbled her name upon a note and showed it to him. Raenial had to laugh, his smile broadening even further upon having his suspicions confirmed for him.
They continued to chat as the subject of his incarceration came up and he teased her about the company she kept. Their conversation was interrupted by a voice familiar to Raenial issuing forth from the hallway behind them. He turned to see Jenoir standing just beyond the curtains being detained by the guards. He ordered the guards to let her pass and then all chaos broke loose as she was followed by a young looking Tauren man and everyone started talking at once. Clumsily Raenial tried to introduce Jenoir to his newfound friend and she likewise introduced the Tauren as her new man. He also steadfastly ignored the suggestive look Jenoir gave him, as if to ask if she'd interrupted something -other- than a friendly conversation.
Once the chaos of pleasantries was over Jen addressed him rather seriously, wanting to know what he or his friend knew of Kaldorei. The mention of Kaldorei made Raenial stiffen up for several reasons, the worst of which he hoped and prayed Jenoir had not discovered. He asked her why she was asking about Kaldorei and was greeted with a rather fierce answer that one had visited her home in Ratchet and had basically made some threats towards Mari and her family, something Raenial knew Jenoir would not stand for, and neither would he come to think of it. He was taken aback again after he asked her who this Kaldorei had been and was told it'd been Moonwhisper. It took all of Raenial's strength to keep from reaching out to touch the scar that suddenly itched from where Moonwhisper had stabbed him in the back the last time the two had been in Ratchet together.
Their brief but intense fight flashed before Raenial's eyes and he informed Jenoir that she'd have to beat him to Moonwhisper if she intended to extract her own vengeance on the man. The comment made her lunge for him and she grabbed at his tabbard while snarling and gazing at him with blazing orange eyes, asking him what business was it of his to deal with Moonwhisper. Raenial very calmly removed her hands as he stared her down and told her that for one she and Mari were practically family as far as he was concerned and that he had his own vendetta against the man. His comment seemed to spark some memory in Jenoir's mind and she calmed down a bit commenting that she was going to go check out Booty Bay for Moonwhisper and claimed she was going to wear his ears as trophies, meanwhile her Tauren companion retreated with a rather uncomfortable expression on his muzzle. Raenial said told Jen that if he made it to Moonwhisper first he'd save his ears for her. She grinned brutally at the suggestion and agreed then briefly said her goodbyes and when chasing after her new man.
Raenial wanted to explain to the young adept beside him what had just happened but found himself lost for words. Instead they talked briefly about her concerns that sometimes she was far to selfish in wanting to deal with her own personal issues instead of helping others deal with their problems. Raenial did his best to reassure her that sometimes one was better off dealing with or at least coming to terms with ones own personal issues before trying to help others. His reassurances seemed to comfort his companion in some way and she made some flippant comment about how he could even stand in plate mail considering how heavy her own chain mail felt to her. Raenial only laughed and assured her that the Blood Knight's vigorous training routines would have her armor feeling like she was wearing silk in no time at all. It was about this same time that another paladin entered the chamber, a friend of hers. Introductions were made and Raenial's newfound friend confessed that she should return to training. Raenial nodded in understanding and told her that he needed to make his way to Kalimdor himself. Saying their farewells and promises to remain safe they parted ways.
Raenial wasn't sure where he was going to start, but he knew two people he could contact to find out where Moonwhisper was or at least how to find him. He just hoped he'd get an answer in return.